I am currently applying to college, 12 to be exact. So my life has recently become quite stressful! I woke up early this morning determined to crank out my college essays, but its been 4 hours and I have produced only 190 words that somehow form a complete thought and make sense. I feel kinda suffocated by the weight of the essays on my life, I can usually write a 4 page paper in the time its taken me to come up with 190 words. Now I seem to be procrastinating on DA because it calms me. Well if you have made it this far I'm surprised cause i know all of you are just dying to hear about me and my current predicament at 1 on a Saturday lol, but if you have give yourself a pat on the back and a hug from me. Also everyone has gone through this so I can make it right I just have to get motivated and stop being so concerned about my first draft which I am scrutinizing as if I am painting the costume one of those miniature action figures. I seem to just let go and write freely, I think somewhere in the back of my head I feel like every word I put down is final and if I don't choose it carefully it will exempt me from acceptance, but this is supposed to be my first draft! I don't get myself sometimes.

On a positive note its my birthday in 14 days yay for being 18! Boo for having to apply to the draft war scares me.

Well I am going to try and finish these essays!

Wow there were a lot of "I" in that journal so enough about me what about you?

Have any words of wisdom? Interesting stories? Just want a place to rant?

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